upload 1 pic of me and fi posted on left.
to add on, it's been a hella week to update my blog on. in office now, ain't in a right frame to post any. pics(random) at fi's blog.
will update more soon.

been up reading the book called "Rich Dad, Poor Dad". never liked drowning myself in other fictions and novels. books that i can relate to in one way or another, in life as such is worth a read-up.reading the book has gotten me to realise how i was so absorb in financial planning. let me explain, before you conclude anything.
working full-time down to part time one yr ago and studying at the same time has gotten me to figure out how things can be perceive in different ways. ok not making sense? fine. ever since got a well paid part time job, i earned, saved, spent. that's much a monthly routine issue. right from the day i've started working, i've not taken allowance from my paps and mum apart from the fact that they pay off my car instalments and school fees which i totally understand how hectic it wld be for them. apart from that, i've been looking towards investment plans for myself. no not insurance coverage.
i've always been very much into investments, all sorts. time deposits, unit trust, toggling around with funds. met up with quiet a number of financial planners from the all sorts of insurance firms but none which i find is suitable for me. i would say i'm choosey. yes.
funny as u see, i break up my life into sets of 5 yrs (25,30,35,40....). and within and after every 5 yrs, what im to aim and achieve. easy or hard, i've yet to figure.
i know i spent a well bit on almost everything, from clothes to watches, to car's stuff to food, girlfriend to my djing stuff on and on, surprisingly i've saved quiet a bit.and i'm glad for that matter. every pay slips that's arrived, fi will let me settle alone for 15 mins whereby i sort my daily/monthly expenditures and how much to spent and save. til today, i just need 5 min. yes, haha cause of increase in daily spendings. as much as im of an impulsive spender, i've never regret in purchasing any. cause one way or another i'll make that 'shit' in use. ha.
although fi spends a great deal all the time, she has 5 times more savings than i do. beat that. i shant say i control her spendings but i do keep telling her how much every mth she shld save and what she shld do with the savings she have. she can jolly-well open many time deposits, but she just doesn't like the idea of her not being able to touch her funds.
my job's management is indeed getting rather bad, but i know no matter where one goes, they with no doubt face one difficulty or another. i rather face it and doubt i'll get my butt out of this job (due to great pay.=) )and flexi schedule. i'll just have to learn to deal with it in a positive way. which i think it's rather simple...seriously!
...so...find me 10 yrs time, because ive started investing on my own already =) not in stocks (no no) and i'll make fi rich too! and hopefully my parents can service their "little investments"(me) with lesser interest as years comes by. heh.
and did i mention, fi says she wants to be a tai - tai... i'll work towards that!! ahahha...
savings are essentials, ain't it?

one remarkable thank you to dearest Adeline Ng at her blog. oh my. for such compliments from u to both fi and i. haha. please get yourself and gil over to my place on christmas eve. til then.

Rouge last night with the bunch was awesome. Been awhile since I last had hell fun.
one thing amiss, fi cldn't go.
anyhows, photos taken were crazy. too many obscene snaps.
mel had stripped those pics off. u can check the rest at her yahoo photos. link's on the left.

now's throat's all sore. cant club tonite. working my bum on the sunday.
got my technics 1200mk2 and mixer yesterday at dirt cheap pricing. totally satisfied. =P

living my past days with my collection of records, receiving frm juno and chemical records online.the postage and all are way killers. tryin to get the technics stylus M44-7 and pathetically, it's once again sold out. will be purchasing a pair of technics decks and mixer tom. testing first, still not too sure if i should burn my $$$ on them.
on another surprising note,

today, woke up with a box at my audio room. i've received a package and it isn't something i purchased somewhat along those days. means, i did not buy them.
opened it and it's a pioneer hdj 1000. !!!!! i love this shit!!. k fine, it's for my mixing. not for cd players, its for the turntables.
but great stuff that cost about USD 175 and in singapore it's about $200++++.
After being so hyped about it, i sat down and thought, who sent it???
questioned almost every soul i knew, no they did not give me.
and definitely not fi, cause she is utterly surprise as well.

so....who sent it? Santa must have been good to me this year, i see? haha.
No name, no return address. To you out there, thanks a great deal...i really do appreciate it. Please at least let me know who u are. Thanks a bunch!!!! wooohooo!!! =)))))))))))

everyone just has to laugh at me when i speak chinese.
besides, i never liked that language.
=(

when sheryl came over...

finally posted something online for edwin. he insists that his etracx studio shld be up.here you go =)

the last 2 off days that I had, was spent to the fullest.
had a night with sheryl, she bunked over. talked frm dinner till back home, at my balcony, with booze and chat through til 6 in the morning and made so much noise (uh-no). Honestly, didn't get high on the drinks we had, but the topics we had. Talked so much from the silliest to the serious issues in both our lives. I was tired, exhausted but she still can't sleep. At last we slept until 2pm in the next day. She accompanied me to SimLimSq and Towers to gather info abt my lightings. The followin day, we had given our hair a treat. Made my way to e-tracx to hand Feng my Demo. And head to Rouge @night with the rest. Really, we did too many crazy things. Getting high was one. Ha. Well these past few days, that skinny fellow had been stuff with food by me, except for the fact tt we ate meals at wierd hours.
no doubt, it's been a hella hours that I've spent and found out how similar we both are. u muthafucka! ha!
Will upload recent pics soon.
btw, wish things will be fine for u both soon.

finally got my pioneer cdj with my decks and my new stereo system.
functions well in my audio room. now, these days you know where to find me.

friday was spent recording my demo. late afternoon, was with dad, checked out sound systems at SimLimSq. he got me 2thousand worth of speakers, amplifiers and sub-woofers. pretty reasonable. but thanks pap!
the rave party was ok. company's dinner and dance so-to-be.seeing wasted officers lying around, making a fool of themselves was really a good laugh. and how horrible, i got up so early to step foot in the office. waiting for the time to tick at 7, will be heading to pick up my pionner cdj-800; plus my speakers are being delivered today, fi's coming over too.

by the way, which part of to-may-to (tomato) equals to mayo?
for all the time i mentioned "can i have packet of tomatoes" from macs. they will give mayo.
is it really pronounced as "to-mar-to" ?

weeks filled with 'i don't quite remember thou'. bought white diamond vision headlights for my car at the motor road show. going to head down one of these days to add bodykit for my car. just have not got the time to do so. work has begun again. contemplating whether to splurge on speakers, amplifiers and pioneer cdjs.
these pass few days, i term them as 'sweet .. wild.. serves me well.

don't you just miss being chased or being the one chasing. don't you miss the times when you are anticipating the little signals given. thinking over and over the type of text styles you want to send. hows it like when we first held hands, and simply how did the first kiss began?
.... can we date, again?

just had a chat with sandra on msn. the 2 links she gave me to blogs which are hmm...lesbians talking about their sex life and ramblings of..( i forgot actually). wow anyway. is there anything else u can post besides sex...sex..and your moves? no offence, i wonder.

past few days, recollections of which includes days of clubbing, drinking, hanging out with my great friends and work. been to the record store couple of days before, gotten my vinyls. im glad today, ive got the time off by myself at home with my decks. just whipped a new mix out, to play out while driving.
sasha's on, right now at zouk,blame it on my work, i can't make it down. hopefully, i get to hear pete tong's.

air-con malfunctions, giving me plentiful nonsensical reasons to be online. option 1: listen to ur records, no blanket covered, and slp. opt 2: chat with a fren till u fall alsp. opt 3: chat online with friends when u figured u just can't get to any dreams. opt 4: find everthing else is boring and left with no more option and s.l.e.e.p. opt 5: go to the attic to bunk into any rooms...then again, no too spacious and i imagine hell loads.-don't wish to spook myself to slp.
op1 done, cant slp so turn on the comp 3 times. chat with mel anne till she realise she had sch later so off she goes. chatting wif jane online and visiting random sites. either way, i can't get to bed with no cool air!. wait til my parents r awake, i gotta hop into their room.

hate to club on eve of public hols. first thing, everywher's jam, valet's full ( i don't go early just to find a parking space), not in favour of crowds. hate to queue. that was zouk last nite.

make me drowsy.

went up with malaysia in a group. ker lin drove us up. love his nissan speed. my dad and mum doesn't have any clue of me being in malaysia because they will freak out. being, my first time there. well, fun experience. have all the great buys, delicious cheap food. and found my best buddy to talk to abt cars, ker lin. just keep talking abt cars and his modification and my specs. evening, drove back hometown, back to school campus, to try out his mod nissan. i tried this cool shite, i rammed the car to rev 4-5rpm in the campus carpark with half clutch on, making the tyres screech while the car surched forward, great pain to his wheels i know haha, but i was allowed to give it a shot. i love the feelin babe! mine's auto so never get to experience such trill with manuals. we then headed to wala wala at holland v to end the night with glasses of cold beer. yum. now im all beat, but bought couple of pc games and im gonna play it on my 17" with great stereo. on the contrary, i don't really fancy much comp games. i just need my bed now.

zouk was not bad. had my taste of house with deep dish-flash dance. crowd was right.
didn't have free passes for tonight, till i met david, one of the djs of e-tracx. i really cldn't recognise him at first, but anyhows he got us passes. well, drinks i bought were practically for the girls, reason being, i can't realy drink. yes, i know im utterly lousy. i get red like lobster hell easily. wonder why fi likes it when im red. but ain'i always? sigh.
never knew patsy and jane cld totally attract guys. guys practically were all over them. thought rouge night was bad, man, zouk was the night for them. ha.
to add on, i had this guy coming to me suddenly and said, "r u agacia? fiona's boyfriend?" and i was like, err ya, u lookin for fiona? and he replied , " u know u one hell of a lucky bastard?" wow, err thanks...found out he told fi before that he will turn her straight, so will other guys. haha, ok. and he....express his undying love for my poor fi on the dance floor with his i dunno hand signals.., u bet she was traumatised. i was practically stunned =O AND, he came over and said to me" can u be a woman tonight??" What???? err...no. and he grab and hug me and ewww... no! ur so drunk u bloody ass!!damnit. and there, another guy picking fi up. and she's like u gotta ask my girlfriend, and his frenz look over at me.
hey i've no idea wats goin on man. everything's like happening crazily when clubbing with girls.
but oh well, im used to fi being picked up here and there. oh my!

i know you've been the best and i cldn't ask for more.
somebody just gotta shoot me!

....

given the circumstances, i know i'm such a scumbag, im sorry. really am. find a better someone if u can...

"...into the hall, scribbling last minute knowledge on figures and theories, step out and !! damn de muthafarking piece of....!!!" the end.
but, no its not yet the end, suffering til end of da week. is it that bad..?

lighter note, counting down to the motor roadshow this nov11. concluded wat i need to add-on to my wheels.

love these days weather,... make love...., uhmm, i mean peace. Peace?

regards to all once again. disappeared awhile ago, been tied down with exams, which has yet to end.
pop by rouge awhile ago with the craziest bunch. went down coz edwin was on the decks. was kinda a last min outing. well, they had so much fun getting me dead wasted with jugs of heineken so jane can drive my car. no, i was sober. drive the girls back. jus remembered, yeah we have a paper on monday. rescue me!

yesterday evening, we dropped by a dvd store. fi paid for her stuff and the cashier boy asked fi "hey, i found you on friendster.." and i was like " wow, wad a small world.." or shld i have question "how de hell..?", surprisingly not. haha. fi was jus too excited with her dvd that she didn't even realise the guy was talking to her. poor guy. =]

Had scorching sun right on us as bernard wanted to go tanning on tuesday. Four of us were there with lenny as well. they wanted to come over my hse after tt, but fi fell sick so did bernard, so of coz they beta go hm and rest. thought i cld go home and sleep thru-out, but mel called and said she was bored (hahaha..). ok...so we went down to meet syl and mel after dinner and talked for 3 1/2 hrs, believe it? oh boy. time did passed real fast.

feast out at "molly marlone" did i get it right? im bad with names and everytime i mentioned molly marlone, fi jus had to laugh at me...beats me. it's an Irish pub situated far end of boat quay. fi went there with her girls and she wanted me to try out the fish and chips. not bad, and when she ordered one portion, i was like " you not hungry? why one?" gladly, we didn't make it 2, 1 portion was enough to satisfy both our stomachs.
took a stroll down the river, chatted lots as usual. realy don't know what we talked abt but, everything jus flows. sat down and i happen to notice the rickshaw, trishaw? (wat's the diff actually) and its touring up and down. but anyway, i was just telling fi, "wanna catch a ride on it?" and she's like " why, but you're not a tourist." .... yah, but we can pretend to be one right? haha.
althou singapore has realy nothing much to fancy about and shopped enough, eat enough. don't you wonder sometimes how's it traveling along s'pore river in those "expensive ride boats" and even riding on a rick/tri shaw?
ok, back where i was.. so night was still too early to end just like that at 8:30pm right? we decided to catch "white chicks" ho, ho..awesome! great laugh! never laughed so much watching a comedy before.

........perfecto. half-journey thru my biz comp assignment. truly rather greatly achieved alright. haha. though its gonna be hours soon to dateline, and still half-done, but hey im almost there. half-done in couple of hours all thanks to 2 sweet babes. jane and jane. ya., 2 with same names. but thanks for staying up thru msn with me and telling me wat to do which ive simply no clue to start with.
/lids are closing, stomach fluids rising,eww,hungry/

and to mel, much to my help in your blog,fine layout i must say. haha.

like it, any? me, both. but sadly my bro took the 1st. with radio n mp3. i'll jus stick wif a fone,the second piece which is only 3 days old and it jus glided all over the floor. butt!

Fi's gonna kill me for this. :x

bundled my day with more vinyls. had dinner at fi's place. helped her fix up her 3-in-1 printer to her laptop. she's always needing help with technical enquiries.ha. she says tt's why im needed for.ok........ =]

caught the show wimbledon. splendid! finally fi agreed to watch that show with me, which she ultimately fancy it. brings back familiar memories. finding myself on court and the adrenalin rush that just gushes through every match point. even fi now wants me to teach her tennis. haha. yes yes, sure will.

it's been awhile since we went out for dinner and movie. just this simple, just so fine. been too busy with work and other errands.
just to add alongside, she never fails to buy sth esp just when i utter sth.."hey, it's nice". analysing the way she splurges, i've tried to hold back those words. a girl with 20 over pairs of shoes, countless bags, earrings, tops..list continues. she simply likes all diferent kinds of food. good food=)

/i like my milk cold, chilled./

experimenting with my new gadget mot v3. still prefer e398.
...jol, if ur reading this, ive not been able to load the phtos as my cable from phone to comp is irritating my ass. will let u view soon yeh?
bored like jelly in the office.

feelin realy uneasy. you have been checking through my archives since yr 2003. why?

visit my new toy http://sg.motorola.com/pcs/v3/sg/, to be.

finally able to do wad i always wanted to do on sundays.
washed up my lil peugeot give her a good wash,vacumm,wax. she took up 3 hrs of the day.ha.
scorching hot these days, just had to dip myself into the spa pool. and had myself onto my decks yet again. had dinner with parents and grandmas and pap, the usual weekend dinner.

recently, loaded this ip add tracking stuff onto the blog,bet many have use it on your blogs. really fascinating to find out people in and out my blog from different c'tries and using wad server,wad browser and which source they come from and how long u stay.
just found out one source from this user today. he/she typed 'singapore butch blog' from yahoo search and she arrived at my blog. why singapore butch blog?what a unique search.

was waiting for fi to end work today, and i had satisfy the itch-with vinyls
besides, new shipment was in,spent wee close to 4 hrs in the record store. bought loads worth of prog house,tech house,tribal. among all best remembered is deep dish. just spent the next 3 hrs with my decks. best bite.
swing me to bed.

....jason said " u have your blog pages printed out in the printers man.pages after pages..." oh ok. what's that suppose to be? again, no one has an idea of the source.thanks for mentioning by the way. or is it you who is playing pranks again.haha. in any case, to whom it may concern; even if u'll like to disseminate such info about my blog which seemed to be utter rattlings, whatever your intentions may be do cover your ass as we clearly know officers are around. clearly, these intentions of yours totally crack me up.

cool it guys, im not a wee bit pissed.y shld i? been down with the sick bugs. ha. sniff,cough,usuals.

i reckon it's best if you outta know this. as much as ive been told not to mention any of these to u,as others advised, as things will still be the same. the tension can be felt can it? im sorry. i didn't mean to. but i guess after all these times i treated you above the rest of my friends, u ought to know how i feel. you are my closest friend, doubt any will beg to differ. was there for you at your deepest times. if u could, u'll spill out every of your complaints to me, and i listen. being supportive at every time. trust me, i put your feelings above the rest, did i mention, even above fi. maybe it didn't occur to you, or it was never enough. picking you up, cancel plans with everyone else to meet you (when you're down). rushing to places to meet you coz i know my good friend doesn't like to wait. the list goes on. many spelt it clearly to me that you're a person like this, need people to be giving most of the time. i accepted it. but i guess no one will ever come this close to realise how tiring it is. why u may ask. it occurs to me that all you need is a figurine you approach at your worst times. maybe things are not as bad as i think. maybe. but will i ever know that my good friend will ever realise that she has been living within her own bubble everyday? find me evil. but your own friends feel that way too. no one tells you cause everyone knows u will just deny all the above.
simply, i've never bothered much about friendships. and this entire month loads of events happen that totally blew me away. friendships that i never given much thought happens to be the ones who i can realy relate to. for 2 yrs, i thought i put in a considerable effort for your day in august, have i?........
u may question, how many times u called for a gathering, but i declined. honestly as ive mentioned ive been busy with work. frankly, i appreciate u for asking.
previously, u said i have been spending more time with friends i just knew. yes ive been spending time with them, but i refuse to believe that its taking over times i have with my close friends.
oh and did i mention, times when you say u dun feel appreciated? many of those times, i feel like drilling into you that.."hey and how about me?! im the one not been appreciated!" and times that i get so mad, i feel like telling you "u have friends that u think do not appreciate you, pls wake up and stop drowning yourself in self-pity" i didn't even spit a complain to u abt me not been appreciated!!
over time, its becoming a reality that everything i do, that is not right nor its up to your taste, its entirely my fault, cause one reason or another, there's something to find fault with me.
i'm tired. tired of expecting anything. the last thing i expected before i told myself that was it, was, been hoping "a simple surprise from you". which every yr you had.
things you do unknowingly justifies these feelings i had.
as much as i do not want issues to be spilled out like this. i just cant find any other means to put the message across to you.
to you:: advises have been given over and over again ever since i don't remember when about me putting in so much for this friendship, but yet i chose disbelieve. today, ive gotten only myself disappointments. and believe me, now u've read thru these, things aint' gonna get better as i know you my friend, nothing i said was ever right.
be at eased, i never blamed you. As i know, to you, you have done your part as a friend. I guess between all the 'givings' there bound to be expectations, and maybe i should have never expect anything.

to those who don't seem to figure out what in the world i've scribbled or maybe would like to provide your stand.........simply step aside.

one with great patience and high-tolerance. althou undeniably at times frustrated with her own decisions. as such; "u know how long ive been waiting? why can't you go to school earlier.."rattlings. apart, providing stationery tools ever since my term started. i started with no writing tools, slowly with a pen, then pencil and eraser and yesterday, she decided it was it! i needed a calculator, so she got one for me. sweet deal!
she won't even dare kill an ant, cliched. but thinking back how she teared when she stepped on a snail, trust me u'll feel so sorry for the snail as well.
bi-weekly, to bi-monthly taking time off to come over to spring clean my corner. slowly giving up, but its ok.=) ha. plus plus..can't deny i cant be bothered wit wad i put on to go out everyday. almost every fridays, she forced this" rem to wear more formal tom ok?" and there i go scratching my head with my wardrobe, darn. i pick clothes up from the top, meaning (whatever that is washed lately is put on the top, so i grab it.) simple, i do mix and match, if its good den great, if it suck......... fuck it. surprisingly, she nevr said "i put on a wrong shirt on today". so there, good sign *wink*
.............im a bad egg, friends knows that, she knows that. to add on, a rotten one. am i that bad?
but she still lives with it, (hoping she can't live without it.)
always supportive with my daily chores. waiting hours and hours in a record store for me to select or listening to demos after demos, (i'll be bored to shit too)
watching me in the tennis courts or in de golf range, which did i mention, she does not know the basics of the game. (so when does her patience run out??).
now coming to the norms - whenever i'm working, she gets dinner for me right up to my desk. (which inturn, i did too.=) ), when im down with little sick bugs, she's there nagging down on me to see the doctor. and before i know, she's right beside me. stress and boiled mood, she does little things to turn me around. the tears she poured, make me feel like fuck all the time. (how the hell u do that? and why?).
not forgetting her long waiting list of sweet admirers out there, sometimes u feel they just deserve her more den i do.
words: romantic dinners, lovely gifts and surprises, showering one with loads of sweet nothings, would be trash if the person i mentioned was not you.
frens of mine, don think im a fucking emotional little irritating turd sending his little sweet notes via WWW, no im not. it's just that, i don't have a friendster account(n not planning to get one) and Fi just got hers a few days back...
SO....can anyone be as nice as to put this msg across to her thru friendster??? hahaha. rainingtomatoes@hotmail.com u call it testimonials right? fine, jus fooling ard. doesnt matter if it gets to her.
just felt like trashing these thots out. bored like jellyfish in the office.
h.u.n.g.r.y as usual.

finally loaded swissotel photos up.
go peep.

these day's are just me and my decks...just so rejuvenating.

met up with syl and mel at coffee club on friday. had lots to catch up on. infact many things to update about. aside, we headed down to mt faber to cont talking, hoping to catch couples out there 'making out'.ha. went for a spin ard tj pagar. believe me, gay scenes r more exciting. sadly, only cld find a few of my frenz willing to get into gay clubs, apart frm my gay buds.
little 'talks' on friday...

Pieces of Thailand
bedsupperclub


club closes at one!
kaosancheap jap food, what a spread.

at chatuchak. thirsty.ha



bed supper club





These are the few that i can currently upload, will be uploading more soon.

one more thing, those out there, thanks for your gifts and suprises.
esp to fi, hope u liked the trip...and more of it...thanks for the many gifts u showered. which u will get scoldings for spending so much..

goodbye bangkok, welcome back.
these couple days was fun, fun, fun, but dead tired. touched down last night ard 12 am, this morning had lecture to attend and right now, im set foot in the office.
brief picture about this trip:
left spore on err..yeah thurs.(how simply forgetful i am) went over with yy, fi and billy.
flew by tiger airways. and let me state this - its the most cramped plane i've ever been to. the rest shared the same sentiment as well. but hey, its an experience...hopefuly just this time. bunked into asia's hotel, reasonable place to live in. the moment we touched down, we visited the shopping places from complex to market...and til the late night ate sumptuous meal with sharks fin, bird nest..great food tt actually cost alot at home. how orgasmic can it get, food's good and cheap. shopping was plain madness, u can get t-shirts at few dollars, which ive never had that kinda buy before. to look back, t-shirts that i buy in singapore can get me at least 10 t-shirts frm there. we all cut our hair at toni and guy's over there. and again, cheap! jaw's dropped. tho' i had hard time explaining to them my hair cut, there was a translator, gladly. sat and sun, found ourselves at 'chatuchak' (is tt how u spoell it...i dunno) but anyway yes, shop like hell again.
the best part's here. we had dinner at bedsupperclub. best club i've ever been too + restaurant. its simply 'wow'. had tarot card reading there (recommended by the restaurant)...im telling you, its realy accurate. hahahha...
enjoyed to the fullest. indeed.

the trauma of "1st time traveling without parents"
dad:"if you need anything in bangkok, i can ask my service managers (huh?) to bring you around , you know?...ur my precious!"
me: erm, yeah..thanks dad, but im another yr old rem...don't need to. really.
dad: ok..but jus in case u lost your way around, i'll give you their nos. alright?
me:hmm...ok daddy...(sigh....)

but tell me, where can u find sucha great dad.
aside, mum's been naggin at me "u shldn't save your money on hotels and airfare u know!!!"
yy and billy are traumatised with Mrs Tan's statement. Haha.
now mum just shouted across," hey, have you pack??gotta slp early you know, flight's early in the morning! rem all your stuff alright?" dad's at his comp saving infomation abt my flight and blah blahs.
even before getting on the plane, Mr and Mrs Tan are totally stressing me.
honestly, ive not opened my luggage bag. will jus throw in afew clothes i guess. uh-oh. ha.
then again, see u all next week!

was on my way to work. lost my staff pass. fuck!
i didn't have enough sleep, feeling so stress and sum it all, fucked up.and now i'm gonna incur a pass fee of $50. damn it.

hectic month. exhaust, exhaust. what else can i describe. been jugglin with work, studies, council, tennis and...if u dun see me in sch, im definitely at work, or if not soon at tennis courts. im glad, council for events so far don't have much this sem, or have i been too busy to notice any. got myself into tennis plus its events. gotta plan for the trainings and all...yada yada. no, not complaining......i even feel bad when shery ask me out or joleen, or berinda, or...i cant rem, im alwaz replying - "im sorry, im caught up in sth"..or "ive got lotsa assignments due".."got work tom, cant stay out too late"...the list goes on. but realy, im really piled up with assignments and assinments. fine, it won't be too much if i dun have other commitments. but, ever since ive stop taking the normal allowances from my family, i've spent wad i earned. no, not that they refuse to gif me, but i refuse to tk from them. althou sometimes dad gets realy angry if i dun accept his money, but ill try to maintain my own lifestlye...plus my car...hah. now, fi and i are cooling off. as u can see, she says im too busy for her and i spend too much time with my frenz (mahjong til next morning....) and i dun consider how she feels. yes i agree, im everything wad a girl hates in a relationship ever since i dun noe when. she gets paranoid and overly dependent and everything i do is my fault. i accept whatever tt is thrown to me, coz yes im just totaly irresponsible in the relationship these past weeks and i need time to sort out my thoughts. on another note, next week me and fi will be off to thailand with billy and yy, so i'll see how things goes. yes im jus a screwed up kid. enuff my frens. another tt im so aggy abt is my decks....ive not touched them for mth plus! fug. anyway load lil of the pix, have not load the 2 yr anniversary yet thou. ya my fault again....

sometimes i feel i don't understand girls at all, thou no doubt i'm one myself.
things said, or done, jus never seem fine enough.
this irks.
dont.u.ever.get.it

life's been a roller-coaster ride.

wishing.to.be.close.to.you.more

check this out, yy i wan to go too. http://www.bedsupperclub.com
i'll make a trip down if i can.

trouble in sleeping these days. thou i've been up either playin mahjong or rushing thru my assignments. apart frm tt, when its time to sleep, i find it hard. its been weeks, and alot things have been on my mind. wonder if u could help me...

last afternoon cld find myself in the office til 11pm in the night, obviously workin. soon after knocking off YY and Billy came back to the office and we ended up in "dai dee" the sole loser had to drink a bottle filled with water down,without any breather. sounds eazi ain't it? so off we go cards lay here and there. hell did i found out i totally have much clue in tt game. a slight bit, so isn't it obvious whose the loser?yeah, me. fine no big deal, jus down with water. then again, i'll almost threw up what i drank. moving on, we then drop by joe's place with agnes, billy and yy to play mahjong at..hmm 2 am in the morning?had a good laughing sessions in and out of mahjong. den again, i was the joker.had no plans in stayin long, but got quite addicted esp by the fact that i had the 1st game at hand winnin 40dollars?or was it 80? whichever but nvr haf i played such huge stakes before, wldnt tt sound gd to stay longer?....luck was totally down on me. lost 100 dollars at the end and halt the game at 9am in the morning. believe me, i've taunt the night ever til this late-early before. drove back home, surprisingly feeling still normal. hit my bed for 2 hrs, den gotta rise for my afternoon class. the next was, i did not fell aslp in class, thou eyes were rather teary. ended the lessons around 5 plus and hit to the library to rush my assignments...stayed back in the campus til 9 plus to research and research...tt's not all, im still not tt tired! shall use this chance to type out my essay. soon, i need a good time to unwind.

most people wld say:when am i gonna shop?, i wanna go shopping. i can't say that because practically everytime we step into town, either fi or i would grab sth of the shelf. likewise, today, we were walking into takashimaya, and bang! she goes to 'clinique'. fine, but end up she gets won over easily by the sales lady and splurge on items which i don't see the need to. anyhows she insists that this and that is gd for my skin, and there she goes grabbing them for me. thereafter we stop by 'that cd shop', hold it, i mean before we do, we were in adidas original.ok so i of coz had to go in as well and got out of the shop getting this pair of pants. well insist that its terribly nice for me. ok so i bought it, don't question me why. but i tot its nice besides price is reasonable.

beige with light checks on it. nice for golfing. anyhows, to carry on, went to that cd shop to get her 2 cds. all these done within an hr. that's horribly amazing.